Updates.. [ got nothing better! *shrug* ]

Hey..
i know this happens every once in a while.. the fact that i disappear.. but then again.. who the hell are you reading this & what do i owe u? =p.. basically.. u can wait for me to post again so SHUSH!

Well, 1 thing which me happy about is me driving classes! I can drive pretty awesumly now.. although me parking and judgement of distance aint perfect.. i drive safe and smooth.. me quite happy about that!

I did fail me road test but then again the instructor dood kept takin me to the yard to practice my hill, parkin and 3 point turn which i passed FLAWLESSLY! And just b4 u accuse me of exaggerating, if u check me slip there aint ONE x mark on it.. so yee.. was perfect! *pops collar*

Road test.. was "faaaaaaaakedddddddddd" up! Tsk.. had literally minutes of driving experience when i went for that.. seriously! So failed faster than you can put on ur seat belt, adjust ur seat and mirrors and check you signals! tsk!

Hmm.. im busy procrastinating about studying law and performance management.. o snap.. talking about my ACCA papers.. I PASSED MY CAT!!!!!!!!!!!!! [ finally! =\ ] seemed like a lifetime.. geez!

Im actually gna go for the graduation ceremony! For Gods sake this is a accomplishment alone.. and n e way, mite as well enjoi being awarded summin b4 ACCA comes along and rapes me.. tsk!

Aiite.. thats all for now.. cya lata..
Peace

RR

Im broked..

Ive just been here less than a month, and i oredy got my 1st injury.. it really sucks, i dont want to say it couldve been worse, cos that disables me from complainin about this 1!

Its me preferred leg, so gna take longer to heal and its at the knee joint. So im reminded of the pain and the fact that i really cant play even when I walk. I had a small futsal session yesterday, and me knee's like twice the size of what its supposed to be. This really sux..

I was hoping to enjoi this year completely since its me last and every1 gna b moving in diff directions.. this def treading along the lines of salt on a wound.. and worst part is i have NOTHING else to do.. cept study.. tsk..

o well.. lets see wt happens..

RR

Now i kno..

6:49 AM 1/4/2009

Hmm.. over these few weeks.. ive come to realize why i love to run away places alone.. or be in unknown spots with a handful or just 1 person.. or spend hours with a close friend or two, laughing about the tiniest most insignificant things.. kinda makes me forget everything i have to go through everyday or listen from family members of mine.. kinda carries me into a different place where im unusually happy.. least a tiny bit!

I know every1 has their own worries and troubles.. dont mean i cant complain about mine..hmm.. mine mostly revolve around the togetherness of my family members.. tis like a mini-series of Bold&Beau happening most of the time.. most of it helplessly, but yet it happens.. im sure diff things happens in diff households so no use going into detail..

The whole being in diff places.. or inevitable endless joking.. sorta is from this subconcious part of me that wants everything to just be okay.. where every1 is happy with whats happening to them and the ppl that around them.. but that aint possible.. some ppl are too old fashion others too stubborn.. whats to be done.. uncontrollable constraints!

I love being in an atmosphere where ppl are smiling, joking and laughing at things around them.. but then again.. cmon.. look at the world we live in.. hmm.. im kinda thankful i got a handful of ppl around me who make me feel like things can be laughed at and ridiculed.. if i didnt have them.. id be nothing but a stand up comedian with a billion jokes but no audience to enjoi.. and thats kinda sad dont u think?

Now i know why im sorta sad mos of the time.. tis like.. im actually a lil afraid of being too happy cos ive tasted anguish, heartache and saddness so many times that i rather be that way all the time instead of my feet floating off the floor before something or someone comes and knocks me down.. tis like if u oredy on the floor, a slippery floor aint a danger innit?

Hope i got to u on this 1..

Peace
RR

PS - Welcome New Year.. u lil bich..!
7:00 AM 1/4/2009

Weird..

Well, by now most ppl know im back on home soil.. well, more than it being home soil, id say me stomping grounds! Its nice to be back.. to a place where winter is ACTUALLY winter and summer is ACTUALLY summer.. unlike msia where it js pours rain the WHOLE year! =p ..and for those of yall hu gna say, "cmon, sumtimes it doesnt rain for a couple of days! " ...yall kno wt happens after those short gaps innit? It rains SO HARD that ppl go missing! =p

Just got the mellow Jason Mraz playing in the background, bored outta my mind chatting with a friend on MSN.. sigh.. cant get anymore predictable and mundane than this!

Everyone here in their own groove or rather aint even interested in JUST chilling, they all want to do something, spend cash or just stay away! *shrug* literally speaking.. not like im gna give names, anyway not like u even know them.. for once.. i aint pointing fingers or making excuses to understand it, cos i know wts going on..

Ive changed.. alot.. but not at all enough to put anyone else outta place.. but still.. i see differences, in things i wouldve done b4 and things which i choose not to even bother to talk about.. it knocks on the back of my head sometimes, but thats growing up innit?

Seems like there are a handful of people who were so close to me.. but now, tis like ive grown up.. and they've sorta moved in the opposite direction, and now we sorta dont see eye to eye, tis like b4 we could share a melody in a song and now tis like we arent even in the same tempo, tis a shame, but the cookie's gta crumble either way. I dont even remember what i was expecting when i was flying all the way here, but i knew i wouldnt enjoy what id see.. kinda wish i was a tourist..

Maybe the coming weeks will improve.. going to sign up for different things to do..

Hmm.. i kinda hoping i have a plan outta this country.. i dont know about where im going to settle, but i want to make a life sumwhere else.. inshaAllah lets see what happens..

For now, with regard to this place.. ive given up on everything, from a future to love.. from a life to a social circle..!

Peace
RR

I got tagged apparently.. =\

Well ya.. tagged.. like it says..

So waeva.. here goes..

Remove one question from below and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. What’s your ambition?
Someone who gives more than he takes to ppl and knowing the person sufficed something significant should be able to tame the feeling of wanting to recieve something back in return.. [ too much to ask? ] 

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?
Both play diff roles.. but i havent met some1 hu i rather be with than my close friends..

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
I always manage to come with "fun" new ways.. =D [ i shouldnt b saying that with a smile innit? =\ ]

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Nope.. its more of a bad thing.. but i like to think it keeps my feet more or less on the ground..

5. Do you believe that what goes around comes around?
Def.. do good.. things will prolly work out better in ur favour.. inshaAllah.. =)

6. Do you believe in God?
Undoubtedly..

7. Do you believe in eternity love?
mmhmm

8. What's a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to you? (List 10)
Same interests doesnt work for me really.. only if God, Himself plays a role in it! But she'd have to sorta sit through a couple of me own interests def! hmm.. she'd have to get me humour.. be a lil extra patient unlike the majority of women this generation.. she'd have to be a lil looney and even more random..  should sorta know how to cook.. x).. gta be able to kick me ass everyonce in a while.. even a lil bichy would help.. and if it helps.. when it comes to dancing, blessed with two left feet.. =D

9. What's a worst girlfriend/boyfriend like to you?
Someone two faced and dishonest..

10.What feeling do you love most?
Scoring a goal for your fans..

11. What is your bad habit?
Lying without regret..

12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people who hates you?
Yaa.. i dont like you too much either..

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
I'd like to think so.. but that aint possible innit?

14. What does flying means to you?
A dream coming true.. 

15. What do you currently crave for the most?
Playing professional football.. or more specifically.. doing something i enjoi doing.. maybe even comedy! =D

16. Have you ever regretted any decisions that you have made? If yes, briefly describe it.

Definately.. I did alot of things when i was a kid.. from dancing in plays.. singing solo's.. basketball.. cricket.. athletics.. football.. i have stacks of certificates and so many different colored medals.. but there are things like academics i didnt really work on.. so having done arabic and french for many years, i hardly learnt anything! Even not scoring higher in my O levels.. maybe couldve earned a scholarship.. that wouldve been nicer on my parents!

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
Most amazing china man, selfless, funny, honest, witty, giving and prolly hungry! =D


18.What have you done to yourself to make yourself happy?
Hmm.. make the ones around me happy..

19. What will you become in another 10 years?
Hoping happy with whatever God has blessed with me and what ive earned.

20. What would you do when you are lonely?
Try and fill the silence with laughs until the next person comes along..

Yap.. thats it..

Well.. gta tag ppls.. i tag.. fatty [yoong already tagged ya] , RK [again.. tagged..] uhh.. what the hell? Who else i know? =S

Peace.. 
RR

Time after time..

Just realized another year almost gone by.. lots has happened.. i didnt even realize that it did pass.. tis a lil sad.. but we all know time wasting was inevitable..

Twas John Lennon who said Time wasted was not wasted.. sounds good i guess.. done!

Relationships have been made and lost.. and so have ppl. Some of them rekindled some crashed and burnt and subtly settled in an unspoken rubble. There were twists and turns in the countless lives we shared with the countless ppl.

We lost a couple of ppl here and there who had to leave for different reasons.. maybe they were done with their academics and some left cos it was just written in the stars.. God bless um..

So after the taboccos burnt.. beers drunk.. ligaments torn.. ppl mugged.. failed papers.. missed classes.. love lost.. love found.. hell even love wasted.. we all still here.. with our broken smiles and uncertainty.. thats pretty good taking into consideration how much we worry about tomorrow and how the path we on is treating us and how spontaneously we use the time we know we have left b4 we all move onward to our own respective & seperate directions..

Pretty empty post huh? =D

I tot i was moving in some sorta direction.. ended up with nothing much.. o well! *shrug*

Peace

RR

Superstar..

Thats what mos ppl hu i play futsal with call me.. not my boys of course.. to my boys im just a good player.. with my boys its like.. umm.. how do i put it.. its like when you eat a delicacy over and over again.. its no longer a delicacy.. its the norm.. so yaa..

I think they call me superstar cos they cant pronounce or remember my name.. heck i aint complaining.. my nick name on the football team in high school was mouse.. cos with my speed id pop outta places n stuff.. so superstar def. BIG improvement!

Anyway, today Ahmed forced me to play in this weekly tourny they organize.. i was def. his last resort cos he was literally at my doorstep begging me to play.. i was declining in my chuddi outside my door the whole time, but he outside the grill was only gna accept one answer.. and apart from futsal i oredy give in really easy.. so for futsal.. it wasnt hard to convince me.

I made it there on time, was a short wait for our first game.. looked like Ahmed couldnt sum up his usual dream team, was a bunch a no1's on our side against a star studded side.. no need for names cos you prolly wouldnt cross check n e way, although you can take my word for it.

10 mins, two halves.. you gotta win two games to progress.. simple enough..
I was having a ball as usual.. shouting orders out even though i didnt know my team as well as i would usually.. thing is when it comes to futsal.. team work is crucial.. as is individual performance.. team play always boots a ball hog wannabe hero!

I scored from an assist for Captian Ahmed who toiled on the wings.. i was make shift defender and attacking midfield.. my favourite.. i enjoi stealing the ball from the opposition and then planting it at the feet of the attackers to slot it home.. but this time it was me slamming it in since it was a counter.

As talented as these lads are.. they have very sensitive attitudes and almost zero technique.. during opposition goal kicks their backs are still facing the balls and when possession is lost they hardly make an attempt to play defense.. its not their fault, its just habit.. so having me on the pitch theres a repetitive shout of "back bitches!!! BACK!!!" to remind them we gotta win the ball back!

I was subbed out about 3 mins in the second half.. i had no complaints dead tired from a long day.. in came Ali, full of flair and style.. seven mins later we ran out emphatic winner 8-0.. since of the opposition players had a lil pitch fit and walked out on his team mates.. the goals were pretty much raining since we were 5 and them 4 lads on the pitch.. but hey.. not like we aint gna savour the win!

Second match i didnt start.. but i didnt care.. happy to not be on my feet.. and esp. not running around on the pitch.. 1st half over.. score reads 4-3.. yap.. pretty eventful.. we were down 2-0.. managed to take the lead 3-2.. but Mohd's team somehow got back into it..

With about 3 mins to go i was subbed in.. as i took my stride through into the pitch.. ball rolls towards me.. step up slam a beau left legged bullet in.. ive always not been able to happily celebrate an equalizer.. its all or noting for me.. 

Next min.. another loose ball.. another slammer with me left leg.. another goal.. woohoo.. winner for me.. what i didnt kno was God was going to gift the opposition two soft goals for us to eat dirt in the las min..

Although in my defense the decisions were EXTREMELY dodgy.. in the las min, Ahmed was being kicked by the defenders like a black dood being assaulted by the cops.. was just appauling that nothing were fouls.. eventually after knocking out countless shins.. they got their goals.. *shrug* not in our power really..

O well.. another day.. another match.. inevitable blistering, flashy goals.. what can i say.. Superstar.. =)

RR