Never Give Up..

7:07 PM 6/1/2010

The title has nothing to do with what you are about to read.. i just need a subconcious push.. being all alone isnt easy.. i just keep closing my books, promising ill get to it.. and not really finishing what i started.. procrastination is the killer of everything.. its like letting a bus that seems full just pass by.. you taking a chance on the next bus.. what if that one's as full.. or MORE full.. what you going do?

I never knew what was so great about Gandhi.. i mean.. yea.. he was a great guy.. but can you tell me more about him than his fasts and grabbing salt on the shore of Dandi i think it was..?

Well, if you can.. kudos to you.. for a long time, ive stayed ignorant, so i picked up two books on Gandhi and im sure i wouldve changed for the better by the end of it.. or least my mind wouldve flexed in the way i would have liked it to.. more than once ive expressed my displeasure with academics.. and this is a little support to my innerself who sometimes falls in despair of my mediocre grades..

You see, Gandhi himself was a mediocre student.. but deligence got him through academics.. thats all i need to do i guess.. the rest will take care itself..

What i like about Gandhi.. is that he was an average guy.. God didnt come down to him.. he didnt have any special abilities.. he smoked once.. even visited a brothel, not that it panned out the way one would imagine.. it shows that anyone can reach impossible heights.. you dont need money.. you dont need influence.. hell, you dont need height.. and in Gandhi's case, you dont need a good head of hair.. you just need a meaningful, unselfish vision.. and work on that with intention..

Ive been having so many bad dreams.. i dont understand them.. people sometimes dream of falling.. being chased.. abused.. im getting all of these in days.. it doesnt make any sense.. is it the stress? i dont see why i have to be beaten the only time i get to NOT stress about everything going on.. anyway.. im sure it'll pass me by and i wont remember any of it..

Bad dreams haunt my subconcious whilst headaches have began to torture me regularly.. all these events are uncommon.. i dont fall sick easily.. i dont get headaches.. i get this from my dad.. we dont really believe in medicine.. we just believe in fighting it.. once again we pass by the fact that its all in the mind.. i admit, if you cant breath, cant walk, cant speak.. somethings probably wrong with you.. but if you feeling off beat.. and you just carry on.. it eventually fades away and you get back on track.. has worked for ages..

Let me give you this example, when people got headaches before panadol.. what did they do? Probably went to sleep, ate something or did something to get it off their minds.. but now that someone has created panadol, the first thing your mind associates headache with is panadol.. just like that.. if you get caught in the ran, you will fall sick.. if you shower late at night, you probably going to catch a cold.. these are old wives tales, but if this is brought to your attention, it'll probably happen to you..

These are two theories that converge into existence.. one of course is the ever famous law of attraction.. and the 2nd is a very complex theory of existence which i forgot.. basically.. if you didnt know it, you wouldnt have realized anyway.. example, if you got caught 10 times in the rain, does that mean your going to get sick 10 times..?

Well.. thats all i got i guess.. headache seems to be getting a little better.. i just feel like i had a really good conversation with someone i dont know.. i miss that pleasure.. last person i did this with was an ex-navy army officer.. a Sri-Lankan berger who left Sri Lanka in the early 80's i think it was.. he said i was going places.. many people hear that.. but unlike most people.. i dont feel flustered and blush.. i kinda already know im going places.. although i feel like its taking a while.. although maybe i need the time to obtain skills and sharpen my tools before i get subbed into the game.. =)

Peace

RR

7:32 PM 6/1/2010