Have you ever..?

Things are piling on.. the ice I stand on only gets thinner.. its a weird feeling..
Im all alone.. & no1 seems to give a shit.. that being an alien feeling.. it aint gettin used too.. its not like I want a silver spoon in my mouth.. hell I aint even asking for a pat on the back.. how about cutting me a lil slack!?

Hell no.. it subtly, painfully piles on..

Sory if my introduction seems to be emulated by a bubbling biatch.. this aint my point.. kinda going along the lines of whats in me head.. so lemme carry on..

Have You Ever..

Have you ever felt so much pain & troubles.. when something adds to it.. you just smile if not laugh..?

Have you ever look into a room with eyes begging for help.. full of people who you thought would be there for you when you needed them the most.. & none of them impressed ya..?

Have you ever felt so farked up.. food tasted like cardboard & paper in your mouth..?

Have you ever been so troubled that you caught your face with the most ugly & sharp squint.. even though u werent really staring at anything..?

Have you ever cried so many tears.. you pondered whether you really could cry blood..?

Have you ever sat in the shower for hours.. cos thats the only place you feel nothing could get worse..?

Have you ever got exactly what you wanted.. but it doesnt feel the same.. its either not worth how you got there.. or u feel u aint doing justice to what you've been awarded / earned..?

Have you ever done something so wrong.. & against your morals and nature.. sleep didnt catch up with you for many nights..?

...well, as mush as I'd love to keep goin & destroying a lil piece of ya everytime.. although the pain may seem great.. as crazy as it sounds.. we still are blessed!

Its hard to explain.. you see.. Im just talkin the talk.. unable to walk the walk.. I know I will be able to walk the walk.. I just dont know when..! hmmm.. thing is.. the fact that you read this.. the fact that you are able to comprehend the words that you are able to read off your PC.. these are all blessings we take for granted innit.. or least forget to appreciate? =\ [both of course along the same lines!]

Hmm.. having said that.. even though we feel the crap we feel.. whether some1's able to pick ourselves up or not.. whether its Dr. Phil or Oprah.. tink we gta push ourselves the most.. basically.. do the best we can.. I dont tink we handicapped in any sorta wayy.. I duno if I do enough.. but "Thank You God" for everything.. & for you Aetheists.. hmmm.. o well.. you going to hell first.. so.. u have my pity! *shrug*

tc of urselfs ppl.. sory if i was a biatch in d start.. i fot it off & tried to make a point of it all.. if i didnt get to u.. sory.. & inshaAllah in me nxt post.. =D.. peace..!