Out With What Was In..

Some people say, if theres anything on your mind, anything on your chest you wanna get off.. do it.. cos bottling up your emotions, would take a toll on you.. then prolly kill you..! =\.. Nxt time I meet one of those people, Im gna take that bottle Im using for my emotions & shatter it on their heads! =p.. lets just put it this wayy.. just how some jokes sound better in your head than in the air, its the same for most of your thoughts! =D.. esp. the really crazy one's! =)

Thing is.. its the ppl who seem to "label" you that scare you into speaking your mind.. your heart.. wherever your vocabulary comes from! =D..

Lemme be open about this.. if you have a problem.. or need advice.. or whatever.. trust me.. I can assure you on anything & everythin pure and holy.. I will help you AS MUCH AS I can.. after pointing and laughing at ya! =D.. tis a curse & a blessing.. most of the people close to me, have the ability to laugh at themselves.. but every once in a while I run into those ppl who think Im heartless just cos I make a joke or two.. o well.. driving those ppl away dont really bother me now innit?! =p.. so tis all good! =D

Sometimes when you tell ppl something.. for starters.. they'll play a part in front of you.. whether its comforting you or a more popular selection, giving their 2 cent advice.. and secretly save in their cache what sorta person you are. Its like being caught in the act.. you friend smokes, you took a puff, whilst taking the drag.. some1 walks in.. depending on the nature of that person & the sorta relationship you have with him / her.. your either going to be shrugged off as "experimental" or going to be forever called a junkie! x =D.. you get me?

Same thing with love & the paths your heart makes for yourself.. sometimes you go down a road you wouldnt have normally taken.. after that, & taking into consideration the way you acted all that time.. your going to be defaulted when a conversation of love & yourself is concerned!

If you loved your teddy when you were a lil.. you gna be labelled a teddy lover forever & ever! =D..

okay.. now this is gettin ridiculous.. talkin about teddy lovers! =p..

Basically.. leme just remind you of the point of all of this trash.. becareful of what you do.. becareful of what you say.. & becareful of what you do, & with whom you do it..! ..& no.. i dont care about ur well-being.. Im just trying to save you some time! =D

yallah.. have to do other irrelevant stuff..
salams + tc..

Hmm.. =)

(8) Colin Hay - Beautiful World (8)

My my my, It’s a beautiful world
I like swimming in the sea
I like to go out beyond the white breakers
Where a man can still be free,
Or a woman if you are one
I like swimming in the sea

My my my, It’s a beautiful world
I like drinking Irish Tea
With a little bit of lap sang souchong
I like making my own Tea

My my my, It’s a beautiful world
I like driving in my car
Roll the top down,
Sometimes I travel quite far
Drive to the ocean
Stare up at the stars

All around is anger, automatic guns
Death in large numbers, no respect for woman, or our little ones
I tried talking to Jesus, but he just put me on hold
Said he’d been swamped by calls this week
And He could not shake his cold

And still this emptiness persists
Perhaps this is as good as it gets
When you’ve given up the drink and those nasty cigarettes
Now I leave the party early at least with no regrets
I watch the sun as it comes up I watch it as it sets
Yeah this is as good as it gets

My my my, It’s a beautiful world
I like sleeping with Marie
She is one sexy girl full of mystery
She says she doesn’t love me, but she likes my company
For now that’s good enough for me

When you hear the acoustic twang'ing & this doods voice.. the song's even better! =)

Im prolly going to make my own version soon enough.. I see the lyrics flexible enough! But then again.. I always see lyrics as malleable cos we cannot get enough laughs in a day.. so inshaAllah.. soon enough! =p

Hmm.. I cant but help get back to my previous post.. in the song.. he uses the line.. "..thats as good as it gets!?" ..thats what I meant.. settling happily!

When was the last time you didnt get what you wanted.. but without complaining to mommy & daddy or bitching with a friend.. you happily settled? & I'm talking about happily.. you know.. no regrets.. no hollow smiles.. no crying late at night.. =p.. just.. satisfied.. or REALLY satisfied..

Its hard to find that being human.. but if you do muster up the character to do so.. you gain a lot.. emotionally.. mentally.. & it shows on ya as an individual fighting this battle that is life.. "battle that is life".. cliche innit? =D ..but still.. YOU GET MY POINT! which is my main objective.. hate ta lose ya after you've once again.. read LOADS of text! =)

Anyway.. gta get back to whatever I wasnt doing.. you take care of yourself.. with the way things rolling, Im prolly gna be back real soon!

Salams + tc..! =D

Lets Be Real...

Ey.. tis me again! .. =\.. who'd ya expect? =)

Anyway.. =p.. just a topic popped into me head.. i signed in.. & kinda wanna go with the flow.. lets see what substance we end up with! =D

People.. whether its our parents.. uncles.. aunties.. peers.. blah di blah.. they tell us.. or quite literally DRIVE us to reach for the stars & all that garbage.. u know.. dream without a barrier or boundary.. you know.. sky's the limit............yea.. right! =D

If people were a lil more real with their expectations.. so many throats would not be slit.. so many backs would not have been stabbed.. & so many hearts would not have been shattered by now! Tis the bitter sweet habit of humanity now!

School of thought is.. where ever you aim.. you'll end up landing a lil lower.. most of ya'll must have got the whole speech from someone.. where.. if you aiming for an "A".. u going to end up with a "B".. aim for a "B".. you get a "C".. & you aim for a "C".. oh.. whats that..? "D" you say?! woaw.. you freaking mind reader! =p


What if.. you aimed for.. nothing? ..what if, you aimed for crap.. trash.. gibberish.. nothingness.. you know.. the stuff under the fridge.. just.. NOTHING.. wouldn't that be awesum!?? =D

Im not telling you to limit your dreams.. or hold yourself back.. I'm telling you to be an understanding human being.. every once in a while.. when you "doing your thang".. to think from another person's point of view & how you affecting them too!

This might seem like I'm drifting.. or kinda swaying from my initial point.. but I'm still on the same boat as you.. just that we might be rowing in opposite directions!

Just that.. where ever you heading.. or what ever you doing to make something of yourself.. even though.. the world seems as though you always gotta take & flee with what it has to offer.. it aint anything like that!

Quite honestly.. giving is much better.. least.. on the conscience.. but a person who's relationship with materiality is tight.. he'd advise you otherwise.. but an average person would label that as a shallow opinion!

Shit.. I kinda lost my point! =p =D..

Oh right.. just that.. don't aim too high.. hit your targets.. but don't hit the people around you or trying to make things easier for ya..
Lean on people.. but don't shove & push them away..

But keep in mind.. when that hard decision does come along [like it always inevitably does..] try making the compromise & sacrifice with yourself.. doesn't always have to be that naive person who's always willing to take the heat for you.. irrespective of whether its your mom or bestest best buddy.. -_- ..ow the hell you expect to advance emotionally?! =\.. anyway.. drifting again.. 0_o.. [aint a very gud post innit? =\ ]

Back to me point.. [again!] ..stepping on toes is one thing.. kicking some1 in the nuts is something else..!
Find the balance.. find the place where you punch the dood in the stomach.. but you both just laugh about it & shrug it off.. & you await your turn to be punched.. that being the heights of a metaphor.. dont go punch your daddy for paying tuition..!!

Hmmm.. this is horrible..! =p.. me going stop now.. u either got me point.. or you didn't.. if you didnt.. HAHA!! I stole about.. hmm.. 7mins of ur life! =D

Until more gibberish comes along..

Salams + tc..

Rusty

Have you ever..?

Things are piling on.. the ice I stand on only gets thinner.. its a weird feeling..
Im all alone.. & no1 seems to give a shit.. that being an alien feeling.. it aint gettin used too.. its not like I want a silver spoon in my mouth.. hell I aint even asking for a pat on the back.. how about cutting me a lil slack!?

Hell no.. it subtly, painfully piles on..

Sory if my introduction seems to be emulated by a bubbling biatch.. this aint my point.. kinda going along the lines of whats in me head.. so lemme carry on..

Have You Ever..

Have you ever felt so much pain & troubles.. when something adds to it.. you just smile if not laugh..?

Have you ever look into a room with eyes begging for help.. full of people who you thought would be there for you when you needed them the most.. & none of them impressed ya..?

Have you ever felt so farked up.. food tasted like cardboard & paper in your mouth..?

Have you ever been so troubled that you caught your face with the most ugly & sharp squint.. even though u werent really staring at anything..?

Have you ever cried so many tears.. you pondered whether you really could cry blood..?

Have you ever sat in the shower for hours.. cos thats the only place you feel nothing could get worse..?

Have you ever got exactly what you wanted.. but it doesnt feel the same.. its either not worth how you got there.. or u feel u aint doing justice to what you've been awarded / earned..?

Have you ever done something so wrong.. & against your morals and nature.. sleep didnt catch up with you for many nights..?

...well, as mush as I'd love to keep goin & destroying a lil piece of ya everytime.. although the pain may seem great.. as crazy as it sounds.. we still are blessed!

Its hard to explain.. you see.. Im just talkin the talk.. unable to walk the walk.. I know I will be able to walk the walk.. I just dont know when..! hmmm.. thing is.. the fact that you read this.. the fact that you are able to comprehend the words that you are able to read off your PC.. these are all blessings we take for granted innit.. or least forget to appreciate? =\ [both of course along the same lines!]

Hmm.. having said that.. even though we feel the crap we feel.. whether some1's able to pick ourselves up or not.. whether its Dr. Phil or Oprah.. tink we gta push ourselves the most.. basically.. do the best we can.. I dont tink we handicapped in any sorta wayy.. I duno if I do enough.. but "Thank You God" for everything.. & for you Aetheists.. hmmm.. o well.. you going to hell first.. so.. u have my pity! *shrug*

tc of urselfs ppl.. sory if i was a biatch in d start.. i fot it off & tried to make a point of it all.. if i didnt get to u.. sory.. & inshaAllah in me nxt post.. =D.. peace..!

At The Airport..

I just dropped my sis who spent a handful of weeks in M'sia with me..



Twas a good experience for her & even myself..



Ive been having lots of bad luck.. the most recent event, my sister calls me 30 mins after walking through passport control, basically the point of no return & meeting once again.. she says shes holding the cash which I gave her yesterday.. amount of 1250.. it consists of a loan I took as well as rent money my roommate payed for me..



THIS IS INSANITY! ..or rather, REALLY REALLY unlucky!!! Now Im even more further from paying my fees off! =\

I was about 1500+ Ringgits away from paying my fees.. now.. even further.. sigh.. the coming weeks dont look very bright..! =



Anyway.. I promised myself not to use this blog as a pity filter & a means of making the world know how I feel about every teeny tiny thing.. cos even though most of the world's bloggers do that.. ITS SAD & PATHETIC! ..there I said it.. honestly.. go get a life & a sideline of attention.. honestly, no1 cares if you lonely cos you broke up with someone who you thought was the one & all that garbage.. seriously.. stop asking for pity & just go on about the information thats actually useful! ..sigh.. this aint even the point.. yallah.. leme move on! =D

Being At the Airport..

Before, after & during the time I was dropping my sis off & even everytime in between.. looking around in the airport.. I feel odd.. as in.. for starters, I couldnt stop thinking of that dood played by Tom Hanks in The Terminal. Such a challenge he was put through, & he kinda pulled through in the end innit? hmm.. wonder if you or I could ever pull something like that off! =p =D

Well.. once in the airport.. you dont really know the time, you just concentrating on the time on your watch & how much time you have before you can get everything done, baggage, passport control, maybe a little bit of shopping.. its like.. time stands still here.. as in.. a slice of time.. I dont know if this is making ANY sense to you.. but least in my twisted.. sadastic.. tiny head.. tis quite clear! =D

All you see is ppl greeting eachother.. bidding their farewell's.. shopping.. ppl having meals.. ppl just loitering around.. looking for that familiar face.. riding the elevator for giggles.. okay.. even though the last part was more personal to me than an on the whole extract.. you get my point! =D

Tis like a lil world of its own there.. where you have a small bit of time to do whatever you want & inevitably have to leave the lil world to fly back to reality.. its kinda nice.. theres no war here.. no pollution.. theres no poverty.. there are no hearts broken [unless of course ur flight got cancelled! ] ..everything that happens in an airport is a conclusion of a sequence of events.. dont you think..?

Oh.. flights in.. I'll holla about something no1 really cares about lata.. until the nxt time.. peace + tc.. go do something worthwhile aiite? =D..

I Hate It When..

Here's a lil summing I found a lil corner in no where.. tis a lil interesting.. its like.. every parts dedicated to a different person.. so maybe a lil relation might exist with your respective-self as well..! =D

Anyway.. enjoy!

I Hate It When..

I hate it when I think we know each other & u misjudge me blindly without giving me half a chance..

I hate it when I expect you to do the right thing, you look me at me with your naive eyes & do the complete opposite..

I hate it when you stab me in the back.. even if it is for my own good.. just rip me heart out from the front, I'd actually appreciate that..

I hate it when you accept whats wrong with me instead of pulling me away from it..

I hate it when you say that your better than me.. & then leave me stranded behind you showing no care as to helping me be with you..

I hate it when you know all you are doing is hurting yourself, but you just keep going & going..

I hate it when you cant accept that where we are is reality & not to hold onto false hopes numbly..

I hate it when you tell me what Im doing wrong because you seem a bigger hypocrite than ever & its poisoning my heart & mind with regard to you..

I hate it when you know I need you.. & you act oblivious..

& I hate it when you cant accept & love me for who I am.. without looking for a substitute..

-x-x-x-

Well.. thats all i got.. inshaAllah will post some more garbage found from elsewhere lata on.. =D.. salams + tc & chillllllllllllll..

RR