Happiness

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Spark of insanity..

Hey you.. just stole a piece of paper frm 1 of my friends.. just thought it was interesting so going to post it.. im impressed that this lad just randomly wrote this down and didnt care too much about it.. i think its quite a intriguing read.. hope its makes you wonder as much as it made me do so..

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These hypocritic phased smiles unto us It creates..
Lock and load is the trigger of our fates..

Are we written with a price or do we have fixed rates..
This jaded metamorphisation of this materialistic world has only one end..

Comprehensive perception of reality is a mirage which we choose to believe..
My mind's a framework of the apocalypse..

An insatiable lust for power lurks deep beneath the skin..
The darkness lies in the soul within..

-MK

Now back to F4 for me..
Prayers accepted from all over.. =)

Peace
RR

Only Time.. (8)

Only Time..

Who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows, only time?
And who can say if your love grows,
As your hearth chose, only time?

Who can say why your heart sights,
As your live flies, only time?
And who can say why your heart cries
when your love lies, only time?

Who can say when the roads meet,
That love might be ,in your heart?
and who can say when the day sleeps,
and the night keeps all your heart?
Night keeps all your heart.....

Who can say if your love groves,
As your heart chose, only time?
And who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time?

Who knows? Only time
Who knows? Only time

You again..?!

Just taking a break from work.. read the news.. watched a couple of random videos.. all good.. a few updates..

New Zealand made history in football by winning 1-0 against Bahrain in the 2nd leg of the WC2010 qualifiers.. i think Bahrain gave the game away when they failed to score their AGONIZINGLY easy chances at home.. so no1 to blame but themselves..

Theres a new show called "Bored to Death", its pretty good.. its got a little depth.. its about a dude who's actually a writer, and now his life is sort of falling apart.. and he smokes weed.. outta boredom he just advertises himself as a Personal Investigator.

Theres a Thai movie showing Phobia2.. aptly its got mini stories.. ALTAF WHERE ARE YOU!!?!?! You see, usually he would force me, or at the least, induce me to go for the movie, right now i have no real motivation.. =p.. God bless you Altaf..

Man City lost in Dubai, 1-0.. not to worry football fans of the World.. neither has Man City lost credibility nor has UAE improved [LOL], Man City played a 2nd string squad for most of their players were on international duty not that they wouldve played against UAE anyway.. [ once again.. LOL! ]

I got about 16days left here.. *whew* i duno if i mentioned it b4.. but its a bittersweet thing.. more sweet than bitter.. ive exhausted all foreseeable good things over here for me.. its time to change surroundings in an attempt to improve this horrible sitcom that is my life..

Thats all i can remember for now.. i leave you with this video i found on the web of someone on top of the highest point of a man made structure.. The Burj Dubai.. enjoi its splendor!

God Bless..

Peace
RR

Heavy on thought.. Light on Worry..

I dont think its been very long, mostly cos ive been doing alot and keeping busy.. but my PC was borrowed by a frnd cos her's busted at a time she need her PC the most.. so i gave her mine for a bit..

In the period which lasted a lil over 1 week.. i met ppl i never think i wouldve.. went out with ppl i dont think i ever reconized.. and chilled with ppl i would always make assumptions about before having a proper conversation.. i basically lived a YES Man's life for a bit.. was nice.. lethargic.. but nice..

Being a person who's more to himself than a person who grabs the rooms attention.. i wasnt used to ppl looking for me to chill with.. loll.. but was nice.. cos then ur like "What happend? Why were you looking for me?" ...the response is usually "Just checking where u at.. if u wanted ta chill.."

I got papers in about 20days.. kinda faked up.. but im pretty sure il make it inshaAllah.. even if i dont.. having to do so much work nxt sem wont hurt so much.. the thing about hardwork and pain is.. it doesnt seem so bad afta you've suffered so much! Once you reach your highest point, you sorta benchmark everything else after that..

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After having gone to a msian book fair b4 altaf left.. i bot like 150 bucks worth of books.. the most expensive being a "Koran" in English.. 35 bucks.. and the cheapest.. War of the Worlds.. 1 buck.. loll.. so weird that literature can be so cheap when it helps smooth out a person in the most significant ways..

I wouldnt use the word "regret" but i think i shouldve learnt to appreciate good writing at a much earlier stage in my life.. maybe i couldve gone into a more artsy direction.. but sadly.. ive begun to enjoy some1 else's creativity with the pen a lil late.. so what innit?

I finished reading this book called "Taxi".. its not a bad idea to use by anyone who needs an idea what to right about!

Taxi - Khaled A Khamissi

Just a man writing about his rides in the many different taxi's to the different places he had to go, for the different reasons.. and the moods he was in, and how he handled the many different situations with the variety of characters he had the fortune and sometimes even the misfortune of sharing his taxi ride with..

The book was 15 bucks.. and a cliche spruced up, its worth its weight in DIAMOND!

Beautifully written.. and its not just the writing.. its him being part of every 48 stories, so its like your a passenger in the cab as well..



Thats all i got for now.. gna shower and study.. best of luck to everyone who's studying and preparing for papers.. wish you all the positive energy in the world! =D

Peace
RR

LH Junkie

There was once this friend of mine.. i didnt get to know her properly cos of some things that happend between us.. but her usernames and screen names have always had "LHJunkie" somewhere.. i remember finding out what the L & H stood for.. Lifehouse.. subtly one of the most amazing bands that exist!

Its been a looooooooooong time and i remembered when i heard a Lifehouse song on one of the Msia'n radio stations.. and i decided to listen to all 3 albums i have.. [ yess.. i have that kinda time! ] and ive come to the conclusion that i am quite a LHJunkie as well.. =p..

The music is original and creative.. even though they have quite a few tracks.. the songs dont sound the same like a lot of other bands [ Daughtry ] and they havent stolen riffs from other bands, and if stolen is too harsh a word, what i mean is have songs which make you go "Hey, doesnt this sound like blah di blah?" [ Nickelback ]

Most of the messages in their songs are positive, which is a good effect on the subconcious mind even if you not really listening to the lyrics.. they end up effecting you, believe it or not!

The sincerity of their songs bring you back to listen to it another round.. but thing is.. if you actually appreciate their creations, you wont know what to listen to 1st cos they all are very good.. if you ask any random person, they'll be like "Hanging by a moment" OR "You and Me" and if you ask someone who has listened to most of their music, you'll get a bunch of other answers from "Everything" [ Asher's choice ] to "Broken" [ Taqi's Choice ]

I would go on but its raining and i gta do a few errands everytime it rains.. so id like to conclude by saluting Ms. LH Junkie for being the most perceptive in actually appreciating this band when everyone else was just singing the chorus to Hanging By a Moment not knowing the lyrics after that..

Peace
RR

Im in the sky tonight.. (8)

Just stole the line frm the song thats playin rite now.. "Foo Fighters - Next Year" but i do feel like that.. even though the future holds quite a few obstacles.. mainly me exams in 1.5 months..

Anyway, enough about that crap.. ive oredy decided im not going to go for my mocks for about the 4th time outta the 6 times they've happend.. loll.. im horrible.. i know! =D [ had a stewie moment there ]

Ive given up on academic values.. not that im dropping out or waeva.. im sick of filling my head with all this useless info without having a chance to apply it.. i know supposed to finish and then kinda look to where i can carry on with the application part.. but who said i have to know every freaking thing b4 i start employment.. inshaAllah i shall find summin soon.. and be AWESUM!

You heard me biatch.. AWESUM! Honestly though, almost everything ive tried, if not accomplished.. i etched an impression whilst doing it.. so im taking it to the nxt level.. i have plans and nothings going to stop me, and ill carry every issue and the world if i have to, to achieve what i want.......................................................you waiting for me to say what that is? Well go ***k urself.. i dont want you steal my plans! =p =D

One of the many keys of success is to be the 1st at something.. even if its not completely original.. you gotta add yourself to the equation to add individuality.. thats whats its all about!

I havent even studied half of what im supposed to.. and im confident im going to pass all the papers im going to sit for this Dec.. is that crazy or...... yea.. thats js crazy.. =p.. but just what and see you douches..!!!!

=D

Peace
RR

PS: Cya altaf, wish you all the best.. *mwaaaaaaaaa*

2 months..

Hey there reader.. wts up? Bored so you thought you check up on me? Well, cant say i dont appreciate it.. loll..

I got about 2months left roughly in msia.. afta reading and watching the right stuff, im happy ta be leaving msia.. if i stay any longer, my msian experience will change and i would have to make new friends and stuff.. i cant go through the trouble.. hell, i dont even have too many ppl right now, i duno how id find more.. tsk!

Im supposed to be studying as hard as i can, but cmon, its me last 2 months, arent i sup 2 enjoi? O Well, ive enjoi'd enough and il be coming back nxt year early for a short bit to close my accounts, cancel my visa, get my deposits back.. etc..

Hoping the grass is greener which ever side i choose to go, but quite honestly i believe it will be better cos i think we've exhausted the good fortune we've had over here..

Peace
RR

E!d Mubarak!

Eid Mubarak every1.. hope yall enjoy'd..

On a personal note.. its js 2.20AM and it sux so much that i wouldnt even b able to explain to you if i had all night.. drinks are being served once again at home.. and its js like u could picture it if you think about 3 semi psycho, overemo chix drunk..

Yea.. fun times.. *cheers*.. to the worst Eid of my life.. im so sad im happy.. hah..

Peace
RR

Old post..

Tis coming to the end of ramadhan.. went quite fast, but twas quite painfull still.. and ive got LOADS to catch up.. cos of a handful of missed classes and A LOT of sleeping in class.. usually id blame meself, but its hard to go for 9 hours of class with hardly any breaks, and what are the breaks for anyway? Staring at every1 carrying their 5 litre water bottles.. sipping away happily like they chilling on some beach.. loll.. sux!

And if i got a buck for every person who doesnt fast and says "whats so hard about it? I did it once" ..yea moron.. ONCE is different than doing it for 30 days in a row.. consistancy is the hardest part.. not doing it for one day.. so many ppl have come up to me when i was having a headache or close to passing out cos of fatigue and tried to make me feel better by saying "Ive fasted b4.. its easy.." close to punching them.. but thank God i was fasting..

Come to think of it.. a lotta ppl get saved from being physically and verbally abused cos we fasting.. tsk.. lucky idiots! o well.. Eid's around the corner.. build up your self esteem my friend.. so i can break it down.. *yippee*

RR

Living Life..

I came back from futsal.. to find 5 drunk ppl in me house.. all not very happy due to 1 of those people kinda being a psycho.. as the psycho was put to bed after throwing chunks to an award winning distance.. we sat and talked about the situation.. slowly.. 1 out of the 5 ppl left couldnt take it any longer and went to sleep..

As the number reduced to 4.. topics were still being thrown around.. reminiscing about good times.. talking about regrets.. hoping, wishing for a better future.. suddenly 1 of the 4 ppl put on swimming goggles and started singing to what was playing on the speakers, leaving 3 ppl..

As we talked.. 2 guys including myself.. and the 1 NOT psycho chick.. we realized we all are on the same boat.. journey is sort of similar.. but we all have different stops and different boats to get back on.

She was trying to get into the mind of a man.. why we dont love, why its all about looks, we men are assholes.. but then i fought back with why do chicks only like doods with money and a car.. why chicks are only in for the material things.. and then i forced her to understand that ppl like that do exist.. but thats not the whole planet..

She was talking about how she cant find love.. and how unhappy she is.. i explained to her how shes in a negative thoughts trap and cripple her into 1st a day of unhappiness.. 2nd into a week of tears.. and then into a month of sorrow.. a never ending cycle of pain..

She forever relates love to 1 asshole who screwed it up for her.. basically lesson.. get over it!
It'll definetely change your life for the better.. and whatever happens.. when you think about the past, dont depress yourself over the stoopid things you did, otherwise your messing up whats coming towards you as well.

Its not the journey.. its the destination!

Peace
RR

Ramadan Kareem

Well, its already my 3rd ramadan here.. pretty quick innit? The people i usually shared it with, had to fast with me, this time none of my housemates have to, so its a lil different that the usual ramadan.

This is def. the worst ramadan for me ever.. i know no water and no food is supposed to make you cranky, but this is ridiculous. I have this ever lasting ache in me head.. its like thinking about the load that awaits me this sem.. ACCA's turning out to be this poison that sucks the life outta you, driving you to extreme agony.. BUT.. will never kill you.. sucks huh?

Anyway, that just slipped out.. supposed to just wish Ramadan Kareem to every1.. hope the month goes smooth!

Peace
RR

2 months..

Its been 2 months roughly.. nothing of significance to report.. just thought I'd invest a couple of words here since it was brought to my attention that it had been a while..

Me mum, sis and cuz dropped by here.. they enjoyed themselves here.. cheap stuff, fruits and nice weather.. key things you will NEVER EVER find in dubai.. unless you willing to pay outta the ass!

Went to Cameron, Penang, Langkawi and Genting respectively! Loads of things to talk about every once in a while. Oddly enough, i didnt really get sick of them.. usually i do get sick of people, not like i go away or push them away, just when things get to predictable and jaded.. i get bored.. simple as that.. but this time things didnt slow down enough for me to complain.. Thank You God for that i guess..

Results coming out on the 14th of this month.. hoping for the best so that i can add a paper on to my current load of advanced tax and audit.. the latter is literally killing me.. each question takes about 1.5 - 2 hours.. and the possibility of getting it wrong is like 50%.. any purpose who can make a logical decision would say those numbers arent a friend.

The house is pretty bland now, Raashid left.. so theres not much football talk around in the house.. atleast no expertise and no opinions.. had a nice petite farewell for the lad and i pray we cross paths again.. God bless him.. dont remember anything cept good times.. whether it was Man Utd or Arsenal losing to the other! =p

I got a Tax progress test tomorrow.. i was not zactly aware of that.. ive been floating in and outta class so im not really aware of n e tin.. atleast ive oredy covered most of the portion.. not a prizewinner.. but least il pass the paper inshaAllah..

Now that mum and yas gone back.. im back to my life of nothingness and uni.. joy? =\

I dont know how that sounds to the untrained ear, but its sort of a bitter sweet thing.. i get to play all the poker i wan.. no1 touches me PC.. i get to play all the music i wan wenever.. atleast the expense of not being served at the respective times and everything being for.. hmm.. basically it between being in your parents house and freedom.. as bad as it would get, id always choose freedom.. *shrug*

Hmm.. k, il get back to tax..

Peace
RR

Has it been that long..?

Exams round the corner.. im actually prepared this time.. like supa prepared.. like studied WEEKS in advance.. usually the most i squeeze in is a couple of days.. so i hope me tireless effort doesnt go unwasted otherwise im going to go real emo.. it wont be so hard to emulated cos i know quite a few emo cases over here who have a good record of consistantly being emo biches.. haha, who da man!? *hi 5* ..........wa? dont worry, the emo biches know who they are..!! =)

Hmm.. wa else.. Football season over.. another trophy in the MU cabinet but least Barca showed them a thing or two.. actually alotta things in the UEFA Champions League Final.. Chelsea of course FA Cup, no compliment.. i was just reading this article about how the FA Cup is the least important trophy now that teams just playin their 3rd choice team and stuff.. was a little funny cos the only teams who really want to win it are in like the bottom 10 of the premiership and of course Championship Division.. loll.. and Chelsea won it! *cheers to yall*

Im playing Loco Roco 2 on the PSP, its pretty crazy.. its got this non-sensical language which i love about the game.. initially i thought i chose the wrong language, but later learnt that its a Sony game, and those guys always come up with some crazy shit! It tilts towards the OST and Thematics of Patapon but gradually leap frogs into its own category and individualistic genre.. hats off ta them for making a method of destressing for me cos im so damn sick of Law and Performance management.. tsk!

Anyway, back to cramming for me..

Best of Luck to all ACCA students.. [ and screw the rest of yall.. =p ]

Peace..
RR

Updates.. [ got nothing better! *shrug* ]

Hey..
i know this happens every once in a while.. the fact that i disappear.. but then again.. who the hell are you reading this & what do i owe u? =p.. basically.. u can wait for me to post again so SHUSH!

Well, 1 thing which me happy about is me driving classes! I can drive pretty awesumly now.. although me parking and judgement of distance aint perfect.. i drive safe and smooth.. me quite happy about that!

I did fail me road test but then again the instructor dood kept takin me to the yard to practice my hill, parkin and 3 point turn which i passed FLAWLESSLY! And just b4 u accuse me of exaggerating, if u check me slip there aint ONE x mark on it.. so yee.. was perfect! *pops collar*

Road test.. was "faaaaaaaakedddddddddd" up! Tsk.. had literally minutes of driving experience when i went for that.. seriously! So failed faster than you can put on ur seat belt, adjust ur seat and mirrors and check you signals! tsk!

Hmm.. im busy procrastinating about studying law and performance management.. o snap.. talking about my ACCA papers.. I PASSED MY CAT!!!!!!!!!!!!! [ finally! =\ ] seemed like a lifetime.. geez!

Im actually gna go for the graduation ceremony! For Gods sake this is a accomplishment alone.. and n e way, mite as well enjoi being awarded summin b4 ACCA comes along and rapes me.. tsk!

Aiite.. thats all for now.. cya lata..
Peace

RR

Im broked..

Ive just been here less than a month, and i oredy got my 1st injury.. it really sucks, i dont want to say it couldve been worse, cos that disables me from complainin about this 1!

Its me preferred leg, so gna take longer to heal and its at the knee joint. So im reminded of the pain and the fact that i really cant play even when I walk. I had a small futsal session yesterday, and me knee's like twice the size of what its supposed to be. This really sux..

I was hoping to enjoi this year completely since its me last and every1 gna b moving in diff directions.. this def treading along the lines of salt on a wound.. and worst part is i have NOTHING else to do.. cept study.. tsk..

o well.. lets see wt happens..

RR

Now i kno..

6:49 AM 1/4/2009

Hmm.. over these few weeks.. ive come to realize why i love to run away places alone.. or be in unknown spots with a handful or just 1 person.. or spend hours with a close friend or two, laughing about the tiniest most insignificant things.. kinda makes me forget everything i have to go through everyday or listen from family members of mine.. kinda carries me into a different place where im unusually happy.. least a tiny bit!

I know every1 has their own worries and troubles.. dont mean i cant complain about mine..hmm.. mine mostly revolve around the togetherness of my family members.. tis like a mini-series of Bold&Beau happening most of the time.. most of it helplessly, but yet it happens.. im sure diff things happens in diff households so no use going into detail..

The whole being in diff places.. or inevitable endless joking.. sorta is from this subconcious part of me that wants everything to just be okay.. where every1 is happy with whats happening to them and the ppl that around them.. but that aint possible.. some ppl are too old fashion others too stubborn.. whats to be done.. uncontrollable constraints!

I love being in an atmosphere where ppl are smiling, joking and laughing at things around them.. but then again.. cmon.. look at the world we live in.. hmm.. im kinda thankful i got a handful of ppl around me who make me feel like things can be laughed at and ridiculed.. if i didnt have them.. id be nothing but a stand up comedian with a billion jokes but no audience to enjoi.. and thats kinda sad dont u think?

Now i know why im sorta sad mos of the time.. tis like.. im actually a lil afraid of being too happy cos ive tasted anguish, heartache and saddness so many times that i rather be that way all the time instead of my feet floating off the floor before something or someone comes and knocks me down.. tis like if u oredy on the floor, a slippery floor aint a danger innit?

Hope i got to u on this 1..

Peace
RR

PS - Welcome New Year.. u lil bich..!
7:00 AM 1/4/2009