The Slow Pretty Part..

9:17 AM 1/14/2008

There was this one song i was listening to.. and twas live so.. when it comes to the bridge of the song.. the dood says, "This is the slow pretty part". I kinda had to listen to that part more than once to kinda enjoi it and more importantly just to suffice something inside me.

Anyway, this whole uni thing, staying up late whether to complete assignments or smoke crack, trying to be focused, the trying to be responsible, striving for the most, hooking up or watever it is you do, this is the slow pretty part in our lives. Although, we only going to see it as "pretty" when we rewind and look back at it all later on, for now, its a mini-hell which we are quite literally fighting to just survive!

When we were lil, the sky was the limit, and the world was our play ground, fear was not a feeling we understood so we did it all, but things have changed now that we've passed a number of birthdays, met different people who spoke to us about different experiences, read books and newspapers which forced our minds to think in a more society entertaining manner and shaped the way we would approached a situation. Basically, when we were kids, we were the beginning of any song worth listening to.. very, in your face, and from the heart! Lies were only told white, if we told someone we loved them, it wasnt for money or lust.. it was cos we really really did! =)

Later on, or rather quite soon, we going to reach the end of our song. Its going to be the conclusion, our conclusion rather, significant and containing a lot of substance, but not worth much for its soon going to fade away into silence. Although, let not the fact that the inevitable silence makes our long term future important, cos whatever our ending sounds like, it sets the mood and tone for the next song, the next generation.

So lets enjoy our "slow pretty" parts, take a deep breath everytime we think we losing it & achieve as much as we can, cos the next time you listening to the slow pretty part, you dont want to be sigh'ing and groaning, and trust me, the crappier you make this part, the more they going to be playing it! =D

Im off..
Cya later.. salams..
Rusty

9:36 AM 1/14/2008

Before its too late.. (8)

I wondered through fiction to look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
And I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

And hold on before it's too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

And the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you dont live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

And hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are

It's all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it
Love til you feel it
It's all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives
It's all that we need in our lives

It's all that I need in my life
(8)

Shocks..

My God!! Arsenal just had their un-beaten run in the Premiership by an amazing Middlesboro!!!
SNAP! =\.. I honestly did not see this coming! Ex-Arsenal Aliadere destroyed ex-club & was DEFINATELY the man of the match! ..y do these arsenal guys ALWAYS do these kinda things!?!?! Only person who hasnt upset is Anelka yet.. Lauren & Kanu did cause a prob when they came to the Emirates Stadium.. now this guy! haihh! =

Elsewhere, Derby actually scored at Old Trafford, although they got whooped 4-1.. so doesnt really count for anyting! =\.. but it is an improvement having lost to Liverpool & Arsenal with a scoreline of 6-0 & 5-0 respectively.. isnt it? Taking into consideration that Man Utd has spent a lot finance boosting their squad!

Derby manager Paul Jewell.. WHY DID YOU TAKE THE DERBY JOB?!?! Top flight has been nothing but a night-mare!! I know you did wonders for Wigan in their first appearance in the Premiership, sunk a lil lower in the 2nd season having escaped relegation on the last day, but CMON!!! DERBY?!?! & for those of you who dont know, Paul left Wigan due to his "Health" ..Derby.. seriously?!?! I can see it now.. that dood frm CSI comes out.. "Cause Of Death.. Managing Derby.. Time of Death.. when relegation was confirmed!"

All thats left is Liverpool to get knocked outta Champions League.. they were off to a horrible start.. this being the las game of their in the group stage.. both sides.. Marseille & Liverpool both have to win to secure their place.. actually Marseille can draw, being a point more than Liverpool.. so like I said.. nothing more can make me hapy at this very moment! =).. doesnt look likely.. but then again.. Arsenal losing didnt look likely either.. inshaAllah.. =D

Rusty

In Remembrance..

Whatever you do.. whoever you hang out with.. people will always remember you as the person you were when you etched their minds and hearts..

Being kids.. we always shaping up into people's expectations.. whether its your parents, extended family or your friends who always pushed you to your unimaginable potential.. if one ever breaks a connection in between their seemingly long lives.. & if you ever do get the opportunity to meet another person.. they'll always come back expecting something along the lines of what you were..

If you knew a junkie, alcoholic.. you wouldnt expect him to have 2 kids, a steady job and a loveing wife in about 5 years.. but thats mystery & joy of life.. you never know whats going to happen next, as predictable, slow & boring as it can get!

Some people's day's are a rollercoaster everyday, some people's day's are just like traffic on sheikh zayed road at peak hours everday.. and no one will ever be happy with the set up they've been "blessed" with!

Although over a period of time.. after all the different characters one met.. after a series of emotions are felt & experiences endured.. people change.. its not easy to accept or sometimes, even believe.. but its a given.. & has to be accepted unquestionably.. mostly cos this aint a disney movie and people aint going to change just because you want them to!

Except.. it aint all negative.. heh.. sometimes people just stay the exact same.. pouring cold relief on molten hot uncertainty!

I met a couple of my friends from the mosque.. and they were SUBTLY thrilled about me being the same bum! & most people in the area dont even know my name, they know me by extra curricular activity.. so they call me "Football dood" ..its a compliment innit? =\

Nice to know Ive etched a character of that sort with people.. least leaves a smile on MY face.. dont care much about the people I've beaten or fought with.. Ey! when it comes to reputations, & what people have to say behind your back.. its every man for himself trust me!

So just becareful with what you say and do with people who share different relationships with you.. people who are close to you would protect you and prolly have your back covered.. people who you neutral with, just depends on their character and what part of you you've shared with them.. people who dont like you.. well.. what they capable of.. only God knows..

I didnt say at any point in time dont be who you are.. just said.. becareful.. think your actions through & choose your words wisely!

Salams + tc
Rushdi

Loud Silence..

Theres absolutely nothing going on, and I want to say so much.. its not fair! =\

All i got are accounting jargens & am thinking about all the things I should be studying and stuff.. & i cant help but sleep for like atleast 12 hours.. sigh.. im so going to fail.. i know it.. best part is.. i dont really care!

Since I dont really have anything to talk about, I will.. for the 1st time.. *ahem*.. write about my day.. ey ey ey!! Where you going!?!? Aint gna take THAT long & I wont give you all the.. icky.. details! =p

Woke up late.. ..walked out cos I had lunch plans with a friend, supposed to go to a restaurant & write this review, so I decided to take any1 who wanted to tag along, ended up with just ONE, but still, enjoyed completely!

Took notes and stuff in the restaurant, observing, listening, like me friend would say "blah di blah".. after we were done, had the amazing "Special Coffee".. really kicks ass.. better than Starbucks even.. ya.. thats rite i said it.. you overspending bitches!! =p

Walked alot.. Karama.. to burdubai.. & back to karama.. kinda enjoyed the slow, long walk even though my back and legs were killing me. For you wise people out there.. i know the back doesnt really play apart in the "walking procedure", I was carrying my bag which had me laptop n stuff.. basically.. ow oww!!!

What waited for me at home was sis, mum & of course.. my accounts books! Dad's in SL a mix of business & pleasure.. so dont gta worry about him telling me how i should be studying and all that.. kinda enjoying not having to listen to those speeches for sometime!

Got backkk.. ummm.. watched the last ep i had left of My Wife & Kids.. basically ppl.. in the last ep.. Jay's Pregnant!! HAHAH! =D.. hope i spoilt it for some1.. although i doubt it.. =\.. but still.. HAHA! =)

Did some consolidated balance sheets for a couple of hours.. until i realized i didnt understand much.. approx 10% of the whole 10000000%.. so i stopped.. & kinda glanced at the Past Papers to get a MINUTE idea of what the Q's are like.. after having read a Q.. i just laughed my ass off.. cos there was no way i was gna get more than 5 marks if a consolidated question came.. so ive decided to just work on Cash Flow Statements, which seems MUCH more likely to come.. although still.. everythins a real gamble.. u gta study EVERYTHIN.. there is no pattern or waeva.. although im gna have to take the risk of not having studied consolidated statements AT ALL!

Its not like i wanna fail.. but i havent put much effort.. so.. =\.. i aint losing anything cept for time & money. Not that i have much of either!! Although, if u dont work hard.. you dont deserve shit innit!? Im hoping God cuts me a break.. maybe they'll gime the answer sheet with the question paper!? =p.. too much to ask for innit? yep.. i tot that was the case too! =)

Hmm.. sigh.. anyway.. Adam called.. said there was Football.. Indoor.. so i was game.. 11 to 12.. so i js did waeva until 10.. then was on the phone with sum1 who wasnt in zactly the greatest moods.. until my ride came.. hung the phone up.. Arthur drove.. with Adam in the front seat.. there were FIVE guys at the back.. YES FIVE YOUNG ADULTS.. i lost feeling in both my hands, luckily i dint need it while playing! =p

Played a very immature game.. although my team was up for holding for possession and looking for the falter in the other half.. our team was js a bunch of long balls, raw shots on goal & Adam saving our ass at the back!!

Drove back reminising about all the gud times we had in the past years with Joey & Adam.. in the summer vacations.. we'd wake up at 5 to play footy in an open area.. Adam would call me to walk me up.. id then sleep in my hall.. then he'd come & bang me door.. we'd leave.. goto Joey's place.. watch all the goal on TV.. walk out.. wake up carl & danny.. meet up with the others.. & go play footy in Eid-gha.. Gold Times! =D

We'd come back.. play poker with funny money until 5.. then go & play footy again.. until we lost all the light & the parking lot would fill up.. or some1 broke a windshield! =)

Sigh.. those were some days.. never gna get those back.. & never gna feel that way again.. o well.. got lots to look forward to innit? =\

Yallah.. salam walaikum.. tc!
peace..

Lesson Learnt..

Some of life's lessons are harsh to learn.. heck.. they hard to even accept.. it aint all straight forward.. most of the time, its just implied.. & you supposed to make the right assumptions.. here's a beautiful saying to think about.. [btw.. stole it off a friend's wall from Facebook, her Friendship Quote's..! =p.. ]

It's no good trying to keep up old friendships. It's painful for both sides. The fact is, one grows out of people, and the only thing is to face it.

"W. Somerset Maugham"

Really nice if you think about it.. makes perfect sense.. anyway.. me back to cash flow statements, got an exam on the 3rd, 5th & finally the 12th.. prayers gladly accepted! =D
Peace.. salams.. tc!

Rusty

Lost Post..

Ey.. forgot to publish this.. =p.. havent written anything lately even though loads has happend.. subconcious worrying about zams which i havent really prepared for! =).. sigh.. if my bitch lecturer could only see me now.. 8-)..

4:01 AM 11/6/2007
Its weird.. Im back in Dubai.. so called home..

I flew KL to Bangkok.. stopover for a couple of hours.. then from there to Dubai straight, was about 7 hours of continuous flying.. its the longest I've ever flown.. i know for some of you that have flown to canada, states, UK and other unknown places on the edge of the map.. probably been longer but still.. this was long enough!

I actually watched movies like "No Reservations" & "Hairspray" both.. leaving a horrible taste in my mouth which even the fruit cocktail juice refused to wash away!

I dont remember much of the flight to bangkok, and the stopover wasnt the most pleasant, people were weird and had to walk an extremely LOOOOONG distance to get to my plane.

The flight to dubai was long & odd in its own way. I was paired with this Kuwaiti gentleman who found Thailand quite disturbing due to its high frequency in, as he put it "Lady Boys!" ..heck! I dont blame him! scary thought.. you checking out a chick & she happens to be a dood! =p

[ ahhhh.. just popped open a Laban Up.. CHOIYYY!! tastes gud! =D ]

Anyway, he was just telling me Thailand is one place people need not unneccessarily visit.. once is enough!

Whilst this flight there was a gentleman in traditional arab clothing , the fact that he chugged down more beers than the whole plane in all kinda disturbed me.. just mentioned that cos thats something i have never seen in my life.

Out of the 7 hours.. i spent about 3 just shaping clouds & thinking about how i spent the last 10 months of my life. I dont know, to me, I do remember experiencing a lot, but Im not completely satisfied with the way I handled things & side stepped opportunities I shouldve taken up! These three hours was like a 1 on 1 philosophical session with myself.. very interesting!

I just stared out.. disappointed with myself thinking about how much i DIDNT accomplish.. although.. no use blaming myself or anything of that sort if I aint gna learn from it right?Well, everyone cant learn all that fast! =p.. lets see how things go.. hmm.. for the next six months! =)

Too lazy to tell ya about other stuff rite now.. will later.. =D