Dream..

I was telling.. err.. i cant really remember whom.. but i had this dream..

This didnt really fit in the conversation i was having.. but me friend spoke about this amusing dream he had.. n i just finished with my 2 cent..

Hmm.. i was in this bed.. i dont know if i had like some terminal disease or I was seriously injured.. but i was sitting up in the this bed in a place which looked like a hospital room. There were a handful of ppl just telling me im going to be oryt soon.. but i was just all neutral.. not showing any real emotion.. dont really remember why or why not.. you gta bear with me.. was a dream!

Soon.. my condition declined.. i think i was in a coma.. cos i was getting a first person view of what i looked like in me bed.. and when i looked down, i was wearing the same thing as myself in me bed and for some reason.. everyone around me looked really shocked or sad and i wasnt able to converse with anyone.. very interesting scene to have dreamt about..

Later on.. figure in a black robe came.. i was looking round for a sickle.. but couldnt see one.. but my suspiciousions were right.. as the figure came closer.. the more the monitor showed decline, the more ppl around me looked distressed and the wider my smile grew standing nxt to me dying body..

*teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet* said the monitor like a never ending censor sound.. every1 just stood there in silence, some in acceptance and some in disbelief.. I calmly followed the figure out of the door following the gentleman in the black robe.. just glanced back before completing my exit into the complete darkness with my ear to ear grin!

I must say.. i dont remember enjoying a dream as much as this..

Peace..
RR

Losses..

I was just thinking about all the mistakes ive done, and even couldve done! *

[ * ya yaaa!! ive had a lot of time! Thats what happens when you start studying in the morning real early, you end up with a lot of time to ponder and day dream.. so ya..! ]

Its a little funny.. you dont want to claim that you got regrets cos its not worth it either wayy.. but you do.. but then again.. whats life without those really stupid and dumb decisions. Whether its just you being immature and big headed..

Life wouldnt be complete without heartache.. you wouldve led to good a life to learn how life is such a bitch! It'd be like only meeting one side of a person, so you like that person a little too much and every1's biching about that person and you have nothing bad to say! =p

Life wouldnt be complete without you feeling like a total loser all alone.. it'd be too good if you never felt like you were the only person on the planet.. no1 understood you.. and you were insignificant!

Life wouldnt be complete if you didnt feel one sided love.. I cant recall exactly [ =p ] but its 1 of the most painful and hopeless things to sprial in emotionally.. its so pathetic and almost nothing helps with the way your feeling.. but if you havent felt it.. youve missed out! =D

Life wouldnt be complete if youve ever reached a place youve dreamt of being, and didnt find happiness.. its basically the point where youve been given every single thing you've wanted.. every1 said exactly what you wanted them to say.. but for some reason.. you know your happiness' isnt real and for some reason you cant smile sincerely!
This is just an example and I hope it never happens to you, but there are these ppl who wait & wait to end up with someone.. imagine like marrying this person you were hung over and waited forever to be with.. and when you do end up with them, they dont even make you happy..... sucks huh? Like all twilight zone-ish! =D

I once had this dream.. tis like.. I was playing this big match.. I remember standing in the line up.. red jersey, black shorts.. these amazing shoes! =p.. Every1 has this fantasy of scoring in the dying minutes.. and thats the oppotunity I got.. at death.. the ball rolls to me.. just me and the keeper left.. im all calm.. the keeper waits to see whether I dash or shoot.. I choose my target and let go.. he jumps to my left whilst Ive oredy foxed right.. the shot for the 90 in the top right side.. curves.. curves.. curves.. tamely hits the pole and goes out for a goal kick and the final whistle is blown. At that point.. all I saw was people screaming running around.. and I just stood there alone.. until everything went black and I was just looking at the floor wishing I could have my moment back..

Wasnt even real and Im scared! =p

Lol.. still laughing about the last 1.. anyway.. futsal now.. im off..

RR
Peace..

Plans..

People should be more specific when they say plan.. sometimes.. things happen.. people change.. heck sometimes you just broke! Doesnt mean you just sit on your hands waiting for things to work your way... right? =\.. well.. easier said than done for me.. guilty of numb hands!

Like a stint of The Alchemist sometimes the world does conspire against you, although one would see it as against, in time you'd prolly realize that it was conspiring FOR you.. but sometimes the pain, anguish and failures a lil too much for an average person to absorb and they helplessly give up as they drown in their sorrow and despair.

Its easy to say dont give up and believe yourself forgetting anyone else preaching it to your broken-self.. but I do say be patient, even if im not going to listen to it myself.. it is a virtue and if you dont work well with virtues, let me just say it PAYS good!

Its hard to believe that change is sometimes good when it feels so bad all the time, but when the door does close and you do find that window that supposedly opens up.. you never know what the view is going to be innit? Might as well stagger and wade through the dejection and have a peak!

RR