Letting Go..

As we laughed and laughed, it seemed as though it would never end.. we knew it would, but like I said.. it seemed! Sometimes you never thought people of this sort could cause ANY impact on you, but I guess you'd never realize if they werent around in the first place! You'd never know what you were missing if you didnt have it in the first place innit?

It was good enough for us though, we knew we'd never be at the same table together, the same people who enjoyed eachother's company like this. People sometimes prove to be worse than anything you could ever imagine with regard to change.. whether its fame, money, time, distance or just plain old peer pressure.. but I guess people change but memories live on..

Its a shame but people have to move along on the roads of their lives.. what is life without the journey.. the relationships.. the letting go and the heartache! Letting go is never easy, but most of the time its not by choice of course, so coping is inevitable!

As we closed up the conversation, we walked back to where Id have to see them off.. it was one of the slowest walks I'd ever have to go through, for we knew we'd spilt directions for the last time.. wasnt the most pleasant thought! My previous sarcastic statement being the most mild understatement Ive ever have to express!

Alas, we reached the end.. a sincere sadness overcame my whole body.. its not like the person had even left my sight yet, but it was as if I had already lost a part of me.. thing is.. its not easy to come by people who'll supply you never ending kicks without drugs, booze or something which society condemn's "acceptable" =p.. but when those people do swing by, I can assure you, your memory will never fail you for they really were something else!

... *sigh*

As I realized my voice wasnt within reach of any ears.. I already felt alone..
I did feel sad for myself.. but I knew I'd have to recover.. for soon enough.. I'd have to let someone else go too.. wasnt going to be easy.. but I'll get by inshaAllah..

Peace..
RR

Its Just Sad..

Its just sad when the best part of the day is when you sitting alone in the dark.. a lethargic insomniac.. just being paper cut by thoughts you dont even want to have.

Although, sometimes thats all your left with.. even though there are people around, you know talking aint going to suffice the emptiness of such a hollow emotion.

You walk on the path of nothingness, gazing in other people's lives of unappreciation and abuse.. you kinda forget about yourself, but then again you never did take yourself seriously. Its a steep drop to pain which you dont feel anyway. Everything you talk about and every person you meet doesnt really fill in the blanks, just sorta deferring and skipping things you have got to take care of and accomplish, but we all knew that nothing was vivid enough to make sense of.. just like what you just read.. =)

Salams
RR